and I’m letting go.
No more completing four page To Do lists.
No more pretending Wonder Woman inhabits my body.
My fantasy life exploded deep inside last night’s thunder and lightning storm.
At 7 p.m., the power went out, the computer crashed and into the weather ethers vanished three hours of writing. DH and I bailed, checking into a nearby hotel. Our disappearing act followed power company candor: ‘we’ll have your power restored…some time later in the evening.”
House temps rising above 80 degrees sped up our split. So did a scary black sky. Misery threatened overnight with lightning streaks boomed down to light the night, four belts at a time. I looked at Chuck, he looked at me and, with flashlights in hand, grabbed familiar bags in the dark.
The two red bags hold everything two ex-crisis communications consultants once needed for client emergency response. Odd to be both client and consultant in a single run of hours last night.
This morning, with the sun shining, I looked at last night’s haul and whispered to myself, “Too much luggage for one night.” But from somewhere deep inside came the defense: we didn’t know what we would need — and we couldn’t see in the dark. We just responded.
I’ve learned a lot about plans and fantasies in the last 24 hours. To wit:
- John Lennon was right when he (or someone) said: “Life is what happens to you when you have other plans.”
- I’ve lost 24 hours that I’d counted on to finish several Very Vital, Absolutely Must-Be-Done Projects that demanded completion before beginning any of the road trip nitty-gritty preparation.
- This afternoon, I sheared off two-thirds of the Vital from the above-mentioned To Do list. I have 60 hours to finish Everything. That’s on top of several outside must-keep appointments, critical errands (gasoline in the car, hello?), along with routine daily chores.
- Vital Learning: Vital can wait. It must. Truth is — cough, cough — most of it’s been waiting a long time anyway. C’est le vie.
- Vital Learning: Road Trip packing list got major-sheared. As in I’m packing half of what I’d earlier planned. No way I have time to pack everything I’d considered Vital only a day ago. I’ve got more important things to finish.
- Vital Learning: When did Vital become so important to daily living?
- Speaking of, next trip I take, I’m adding a blank page to the front of my Trip To-Do List. The paper carries a single two-word headline: The Unexpected. That’s Vital, too.
When life rolls, I rock. What else can a RoadBroad do?